See Me! Hear Me!

I’m running a marathon in May!

There! I said it! Listen! Listen! Listen!

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People ask, “So, what’s new with you?” I pause. “Oh, not much. You know, same old, same old,” I say.

“NOT TRUE!” says my mind to myself.

Actually, I’m training for a marathon, a full one, 26.2 miles. I’m running … a lot … and I haven’t even fully amped up my miles yet. 

But I don’t talk about it much. I don’t want to have to explain. Most people don’t understand my reasons. “Because I want to,” doesn’t seem to cut it. “Because I can,” stumps them even further.

Why I Run

A space … a gap … a pause … a moment of nothing and everything.

What happens in these places? Are they moments of emptiness? Or are they moments of fullness?

A lot can happen in a pause. Thoughts fire in the brain. They are collected and sorted, with one selected as the course of action. A pounding heart is felt. Breath is caught, air pulled back into the lungs to breathe fully again.

In a millisecond, with a gap of consciousness, the old brain is activated. It makes a decision. We react. We don’t actually THINK. Later, we feel, and then we rationalize.